Day 4

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I went back to work on Sunday.  We actually lost power due to an freak October snow storm and I got put in the back stocking shelves because I was not needed.  I was able to lift most of the heavy things.  Only a few things over 30 or 40lbs. I couldn't do.  Cat litter, water and all the normal heavy stuff I am able to lift (I impressed one guy by putting his 25 lb. weights in his cart for him).  My uterus was cramping Sunday and yesterday my back was hurting a lot, but nothing too bad that I need pain meds.  

And we hired a pregnant women.  One of "them".  The other side.  A fertile.  I'm not too pleased by this and I was really enjoying working with the older ladies that have already gone through menopause and the high school students.  I thought I'd be somewhat safe.  But I'm trying to be nice.  I asked about her fetus, when it was due and such.  Though every time I ask her something about the baby it turns into listening to her talk about it for five minutes.  That's way too long for this infertile.  I'm hoping to just not see her often.  I did send her to do something else far, far away from me Sunday.  

The bandaids were removed on Saturday.  The hole in my navel is still a little bloody and my lower one is scabbed over.  Navel piercing has closed. :(  I also have a large bruise under my navel and on my hand from the IV.  The incisions are not too painful though but every once and awhile I bump it and it becomes sore.

Gas bubbles are a bitch though.  I've been sleeping sitting up on my couch the last couple days.  Laying down causes the bubbles to go to my shoulders.  I've dragged my king size down comfortable out to it along with a bunch of pillows.  I just tried to lay down a little while ago and I didn't get any shoulder pain so I'm going to try the bed tonight.

I can even feel the bubbles if I press on my stomach.  I made Bean do it too because he thought I was insane.  The bloating is starting to go down too.

I've only taken Ibuprofen so far (mainly for the shoulder).  No Oxycontin yet.

I'm going to go with the +OPK on Sunday as being real.  I didn't get anymore + digital ones, but the cheap ones have been +.  Now they are slowly getting lighter.  When they are false positives they get dark, light, dark, light over and over again, not gradual.  If this is so AF will arrive the 13/14th.  

My post-op is Thursday for the RE to figure out what to do with me next.  Ether injections plus another drug like Clomid, IUI or IVF.  But I'm almost temped to just wait it out and keep taking my Vitex.  If two cycles that are fairly regular happen with just the Vitex I'd rather just keep taking that and try naturally.  The side effects are way less and it's a whole hell of lot fucking cheaper.  Maybe I'll get knocked up like a normal person?  

This cycle is a BFN though.  I tried my best to get Bean to have sex with me, even though we are not supposed to until at least Thursday.  Things I have tried:

• jerking him off
• giving him head
• got naked & showed him my boobs (this usually works)
• got in my favorite position
• offered to do some turkey baster trick (though I don't think we actually own a turkey baster, & now no one is going to come over for Thanksgiving after reading this)
• offered to have him come in a Softcup & insert it in me
•  told him to just come on my outsides & maybe some of the swimmers would make their way up (health class told me I could get PG this way)

Yup nothing worked.  Officially mark it as a loss.  I've heard you're are supposed to be more fertile after an HSG since the dye cleans out the tubes or something.  Not sure how true that is but I was hoping to try it out.  The crazy psychic told me August would be my month, which means a baby convinced in November-ish time.  I still have time! 

-Selbe

CD16, OPK-

Prenatal Vitamins

Nothing new really.

Bean hasn't gotten his SA results back yet.  I ask him everyday.  He told me yesterday that they are able to hold to results for up to 90 days (military health system).  Well lets hope I get knocked up between now and 90 days.

Not sure what my OPKs are doing this cycle.  They are dark, and then light, then dark, etc., over and over again.  It's CD16 so maybe I already missed it for this cycle, and my one boob has been sore the last few days.  I might be diluting it with my increased water intake or something.

I got new multivitamins, well more like prenatals.  My old ones only had the minimum for folic acid.  They also had caffeine and were running out anyways.  The caffeine worked out awesome if I remembered to take it in the morning, not so well in the afternoon.  I also noticed all the prenatals were low on vitamin D.  So from...

• Women's Energy & Metabolism Vitamins - 1600 IU Vitamin D, 400 mcg Folic Acid

to...

• Prenatal w/ Iron - 400 IU Vitamin D, 1000 mcg Folic Acid
• Vitamin D - 2000 IU

My ENT told me my ears and sinuses feel better than they look.  My ear drums are still sunken in and my nose is still filled with snot.  I have more allergy testing scheduled for next week, specific molds this time.  I guess this gets me ready for winter.  

CD16, OPK-

Useless Ovaries

Come on useless ovaries, do your job!

Pretty sure the bottom one is -, but getting darker.

OPKs since CD10 (yeah I saved them all).  Bottom
one (unlabled) is the newest at CD16 5pm.

Tie-Dye & Baby Showers

I made it through baby shower #1 with zero tears.  I admit I had a pretty pissed off morning.  Bean slept in and he probably did himself more good than he realized.  As soon as he got up I asked him to fix the convertible roof on my car.  That was really an unrealistic goal since it only works about 15% of the time.  But he was out in the driveway for awhile and eventual got it to work.  I made my way to this baby shower with my bad mood in tow.  As the time went on it got slightly better.

Baby shower #2 is this coming weekend.  Different person but with  the military we breed like rabbits (except for me of course).  I call it the "train".  Military wives always get pregnant in packs.  They don't plan it that way but with work schedules and I guess luck it works out.  My ovaries always miss the memo to get on the train so yeah...  I don't mind so much.  But kind of a shitty reminder when you're invited to 15 baby showers in one month (OK exaggeration there).  I know I'll miss many more trains in the future.

If I ever get pregnant I will have a baby shower.  Or even if we decide to adopt, I want a shower.  I don't care if I have to throw it myself and two people show up.  I will have a baby shower.  So I get ideas from everyone else's showers to use for my own.  I guess that's the benefit of going to them.

I have a love for tie-dye, or anything with bright colors.  I've wanted to dye onesies for awhile now but I've never really had a reason to since I don't have a baby.  And if I went out to buy a bunch of onesies to tie-dye randomly my husband would for sure thought I lost it.  So I have held off.  Until baby shower #1 which gave me the perfect excuse.  Last weekend I dyed three packs for baby clothes ranging from 0 to 9 months.  I kept about half of them which are now in my "baby bin" in the basement.  My non-existant child can now be a hippy like mommy.  

CD16, OPK-