Day 6

My post-op is tomorrow afternoon and the stitches come out!

My "happy trail" has developed a bruise.  It's looks more painful than it actually is.  My arm also has a bruise from the IV.

I'm really in no pain.  I've taken about 5 Ibuprofen since surgery day and 0 Oxycontin.  I should just sell the Oxycontin to pay my medical bills.  That seems like the smart thing to do if it wasn't illegal.

Every once and awhile I bump it and there is some soreness.  Nothing bad because I often forget about it and bump it again five minutes later.

My tight work pants are annoying against it.  However most of my jeans are too big on me and I'm fine in those.

I tell random people I know and some strangers that I had surgery on my stomach, then show them my incision or bruises.  Some tend to be pretty grossed out.  Oh well.

I can sleep laying down now.  Yay!

I still like pressing my stomach gas bubbles. (This much be the only time I feel something move in my stomach, fetus not tapeworm, let me enjoy it.)

I'd take this over an HSG any day.

I want to see if the RE will do a CD21 progesterone test to see if I actually did O on my own, and that it was strong enough.

-Selbe

CD17, 2DPO

What If

What IF: A Portrait of Infertility

I really just wanted to get the surgery over with Thursday so I was kind of disappointed when they told me it was canceled.  I thought I could easily pass off as a non-sick person.  I tried my best not to look exhausted and snotty when I arrived at the surgery center.  They had me change and started hooking me up to the machines before they took my temperature. But in all honestly it was probably for the best.  I was feeling really crappy and I'm sure I would have been even worse post-surgery.  I didn't feel anywhere near ready.

I talked to work and they were able to change the schedule for the new surgery date.  Bean has to work so I don't know if he'll be able to come pick me up now.  If not I'm sure I could find at least one person in the area to come get me and drop me off at home.  My post-op appointment at the RE is now November 3rd. 

I'm still shocked I got AF all on my own.  Every once and awhile I mention my insides hurt, somewhere around my ovaries or uterus.  I usually just pass it off as sore insides from rough sex or sore muscles from the gym (honestly those are probably better assumptions).  I had this happen about two weeks ago, even thought it might be O pains but that's a silly thought and just forgot about it.  Same thing the last couple days.  Turns out those pains are menstrual cramps.

Still don't get how my body can't work with Clomid 50, 100 and 150mg, but all of a sudden do its job when I have nothing at all in my system.  Only thing I can think of is my Vitex worked.  I'm never really sure about herbal medicine.  I always figure if they really work then the drug companies would have found some way to market them by now.  I'm not really sure how that works.  Maybe I even ovulated?

So goals for the next few weeks:

• Lap Surgery (take two) - October 27th CD11
• Saliva Ferning (maybe) - CD7+
• OPK - CD12+
• Post-Op - November 3rd CD18

-Selbe

CD5