Sometimes I still feel pregnant.
Dumb, I know. I don't know if it is because I might be in my two week wait (I don't know for sure), or my progesterone is higher than normal, or that since I have been pregnant before I now know the symptoms to look for. Maybe even making up those symptoms.
Like today for example. I keep getting nauseous. I eat and it goes away, but an hour later it returns. I had a Luna bar for breakfast. I started getting nauseous and was starving by first break at work, so I had my Greek yogurt and flax seeds (what was supposed to be my lunch). Nauseous and starving again, for lunch I went and bought food. By break two, same story. I finished my lunch then. Same thing when it was time to go home. Then I thought the last time I got these short bouts of nausea was right before I found out I was pregnant, and didn't know what it was yet. Come to think about it I was starving then too. My stupid mind things maybe I am pregnant?
I quickly push that thought aside.
|BFN (negative) after miscarriage|
Same goes for the pregnancy tests. Even though my beta was <5 last week sometimes I swear I still see a faint double line. I have to be going insane. That or my test are super sensitive. Or now that I know where the second line is supposed to be I imagine it there.
Or squishing my boob because I think they might be sore when moved a certain way.
The most practical answer is I'm a crazy infertile and probably making things up hoping to look for a way I might be pregnant.
Have any of you post-miscarriage women done the same thing?
And I'm nauseous again...
My body is exhausted from work. I just worked the last six days in a row, 42 hours total. I want to sleep forever. And my back is killing me. Today starts my weekend though and I'm happy for that.
My pre-op appointment is Thursday for my surgery. I might mention to the RE the ovulation type pain I had last week and "accidentally" having sex twice around that time (nothing is a fucking accident in infertility). Maybe get him to do a progesterone test on me Friday to see where my levels are. The surgery can't be done on someone who is pregnant, it will kill the baby. You're supposed to use protection CD1 and on to prevent against pregnancy. Well I never had a CD1 after my D&C, so yeah, no protection was used.
The menstrual cramps I was having have gone away. I thought they were going to be the start of AF, my first period since my D&C (it's been almost 7 weeks!) It got worse and worse, then went away. Fucking cock tease. Well never mind there.