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When CD30 hits I'll start Provera. Or maybe a few days early because I have leftovers here. I'm CD15 now so that will be July 14th. Then the three weeks for AF to show up. It puts me at mid-August for IUI 1.5.
Originally they were going to bump me up to Clomid 150mg. I thought, "Great, so I'm not doing anything next cycle." (I was unresponsive last August on 150mg.) Then they gave me the option of Femara so I took that instead. It has less side effects, seems to have a better response for PCOSers and isn't Clomid.
Since Femara is brand new to me I am excited for it. My three cycles post-Clomid (and before I got pregnant) all resulted in ovulation. Not sure if it was Clomid left in my system or Vitex. Maybe I'll have the same luck next post-Clomid cycle. RE also said my Metformin might help by then and lower my insulin levels. Not that they are high to begin with (low 90's) but will make them low-normal or something like that. Maybe normal levels are not good enough for these ovaries.
Overall I'm fine. I didn't cry or anything today. I had I feeling from the beginning that this IUI wouldn't result in PG (although I though I'd make it to the actual IUI part). I'm looking forward to enjoying my July 4th week like a normal person and not someone going though fertility treatment. I'll also be enjoying my break since as much as back-to-back treatment cycles sound like a good idea, it is also very emotion draining.
Thank you everyone for your prayers, thoughts, or whatever you do. Please save them for August.
(PS My due date for baby boy is coming up on August 25th and I'm currently looking around for ideas to celebrate him. Feel free to post a comment if you have any good ones. Or maybe it is time to give him an actual name.)
-Selbe
When the due date for the twins we lost comes up, we release balloons for them. 1 for each of then, for every year they'd be now. This year it will be a total of 10 balloons. 5 for each one. :( It's what works for us.
ReplyDeleteI know a few other people have done balloon releases too. I think that's a great idea.
DeleteI have seen some beautiful Chinese lanterns that float up into the sky...
ReplyDeleteSo pretty!
DeleteI know this idea isn't something everyone likes but I went the tattoo route. I know some people do names and dates, footprints, or angels, but really anything that symbolizes him to you is what matters. Then everytime you look at the tattoo you will remember him. Again not everyone likes tattoos or wants to get them, but it is an idea. Sorry the IUI this time didn't work out. Hopefully the next time everything goes as planned and it results in a BFP!
ReplyDeleteA tattoo has been on my mind. I saved a few photos I like on Pinterest, I'll have to post them on here at some point. I've just never had a tattoo at all before, so that's a big step.
DeleteI would also go the tattoo, but a symbol not a name and RIP as they attract attention. Maybe a little bird on your foot etc. Or I would buy yourself a pendant that you can wear in memory.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that your IUI got cancelled~Hugs
ReplyDeleteMy son was stillborn @ 31 weeks. On his 1st birthday I got an angel tattoo near by c-section scar. We have also released balloons and one year even had a small birthday party with a Little Suzie's Zoo cake (since that was how his nursery was decorated) Was just a few close friends who understand some had been through a loss as well. We also plant a flower everywhere we live since we move around a lot. Once we are settled I plan to plant trees in his honor. Also this year I will be participating in memorial walk on October 15th. Anyways just some things I have done. Will be thinking of you.
Ugh, I'm so sorry! I mean, I'm glad you seem to be ok but still, any cancelled cycles suck! As for remembering, I hiked out to a local lake with a picnic lunch and my journal. I sat on a rock right on the edge of the water and I wrote our precious daughter that we'll never know a letter. I told her about all the things we had wanted to do with her, how much we missed her and that she would always have a place in our hearts. Then, I lit that paper on fire and watched it blow across the water as it turned to ash. There was something that was so healing about that day.
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone! You all have great ideas.
ReplyDeleteWhat a disappointment. I'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about the canceled IUI. As for the due date, a friend in Hawaii released a lei into the ocean and lit a candle. It was very sweet.
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