last post is not another round of Provera and my Clomid being increased to 150mg. I'm OK as I could probably be with more meds. But the fact I feel like I have to start over.
After my first LEEP I spent years returning for multiple pap smears and colposcopies, as often as every 3 months. Most came back abnormal which meant even more visits. But eventually I made it to yearly pap smears. A year or two later they became abnormal again and I was sent for another colposcopy. My doctor mentioned how I was probably the calmest person they've ever done a colpo on. Well yeah, it was like my 5th one and I was still just 23. When they told me I needed another LEEP I cried. I didn't cry because the produced was that painful to me. But because I had to start all this bull shit again.
Same goes for my raisin ovaries. I just don't want to go back to what feels like the beginning.