I used to want to be an OBGYN and deliver babies. But the whole 8+ years of school turned me off. Instead I just expend my time with Dr. Google and reading about pregnancy, birth, and any disorders of the female reproductive system. I've collected tons of knowledge that is pretty much useless to me right now. And I probably have a more detailed birth plan than a women in her third trimester. But now I no longer spend time researching pregnancy. Everything has now shifted to how to get pregnant to begin with. I research the differences between fertility drugs, how they work, side effects, increased risk for miscarriage or multiples. How each procedure and test works. And who can forget Aunt Judith's cousin's neighbours secret on how she got PG. I have to say this stuff is nowhere near as exciting as learning about a 30 week fetus or Pitocin. It is almost ironic.
I still consider myself a "new" infertile. In fact Dr. S lists me as "subfertile." Which means I might be able to conceive on my own someday, but not today or probably anytime soon. I am not waiting 'til I'm 42 to see if maybe my ovaries will start working again. I'm fixing the problem now. And I honestly have very, very, little hope that I'll ever have a 28 day cycle (or anywhere near that) with ovulation for an extended period of time. I was told ten years ago that I would "outgrow" this problem and that my cycles would become more regular as I got older. That's a lie and in fact I seem to have done the opposite. If I've seen CD200 on more than one occasion I'll just mark myself as infertile.
I've yet to do IVF or IUI. I've had no surgeries related to IF and the only testing I've had is some simple BW and an U/S. The only drugs I've been on is Clomid and Provera. And I have never had a miscarriage. I've had it pretty easy so far compared to most. So I don't want anyone to feel bad for me. If you want a national feel-bad-for-an-infertile day then I'll give you a list of many other women that have just had their 5th miscarriage or are going through their 3rd try at IVF.
I would much rather bring awareness to the topic that is almost seen at taboo. No one wants to talk about it but you know it's there. The world will be all sunshine and rainbows if it didn't exist. And that's wrong. I was never afraid of talking about my cervical dysplasia or any STD I might of had. These things do exist and I want to help others. It's not something you look down at someone for.
Never pity me.