I had my first ever ultrasound today. Honestly it was depressing.
When we think ultrasound, we think of the one during the first trimester of pregnancy. It's an exciting time. The U/S is the first time you get to "see" your baby. It's so magical.
My experience was far from magical. The place I went to seemed nice, I just wasn't in a happy mood. I was in the waiting room with another women my age. She stared at me the whole time, I tried not to make eye contact. A few minutes later a nurse came out to congratulate her. I couldn't help but think that maybe she was thinking I was just like her. :/
I didn't get to look at the screen, I didn't get a photo to bring home. It's not like I knew what I'd be looking at anyways. I felt distanced, saddened and alone. Let's just say this is not what I imagined.
On a positive note, I should get a call from my GYN in a few days with the results. I'm hoping to look normal inside, or at least fixable. And I really can fit 32oz of water somewhere in my body at one time.